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Cycle
04:13
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Dear
Dear emotional being
I'm sorry that you thought that was the way it felt to have somebody care
I'm sorry that you gave so much of your life away to this creature
This creature who lives
In others' folds and lies it's way inside your thighs until the guilt makes it too tired
To try
Apparently it gets better
So long as the cycle doesn't just keep on spinning
I don't wanna hurt somebody like it hurt me
I've been bit
Now I'm scared I'll get hungry
Hungry
Am
Am I doomed
To rinse and repeat this frailty?
I trusted with every fibre
I quieted the doubts
I snuffed my own flame
I'm a good student that way
I learned to question my own intuition
But it was crystal clear and so right
Fuck
Apparently it gets better
So long as the cycle doesn't just keep on spinning
I don't wanna hurt somebody like it hurt me
I've been bit
Now I'm scared I'll get hungry
Hungry
I made myself a ghost
I stood in the shadows for you
I let you be louder than me
I
I held you up higher than me
For three years
But I guess I should thank you
For the mercy
The mercy killing
Thank you
Apparently it gets better
So long as the cycle doesn't just keep on spinning
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2. |
Hush
02:47
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Don't make a peep
Don't break the stillness
Listen to the in and out
Forget about the anger
Pretend we made it better
The hush could hide the strain that would be in your voice trying to force out the words
"Darling, I'm so sorry"
I need to forget your smile
I need to forget your charm
Your scent
You passion
I need to forget that smirk on your face
Hey, Hush
won't you bury the doubt?
Let's pretend you need me for a while
Pretend it's the first time
Pretend it's not the last
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3. |
Holograms
03:39
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In a Broken City
At a starship's pace
Phonebooth confessions and friendship dates
Here's an invitation to climb inside my mind
To fall back in neutral at a green light
Go go go go
And love you give me tunnel vision
I can't
Seem to shake the way you hold my eyes in holograms
I wanna groove on those luscious lips
And ride this wavelength straight on 'til morning
Let's howl with roadside coyotes
And climb on frosty horses 'til we're twelve again
Spend sunrise bedtimes in soft steel boxes
Steal my lips mid-block, mid-sentance
I can't
Seem to hold on to enough of you at once
This hot and smoky haze it's like you read my brain
And love you give me tunnel vision
I can't
Seem to shake the way you hold my eyes in holograms
I wanna groove on those luscious lips
And ride this wavelength straight on 'til morning
Let's howl with roadside coyotes
And climb on frosty horses 'til we're twelve again
Stretch those floral arms and fold me in like a bad hand
My pokerface is slippin'
Shit
This must be it
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4. |
Eat It Up
03:55
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I don’t know how to be in love
Without offering everything I have
I can’t be your baby
Without saying take it all
Take it all
I’m too delicate for a louder life
Fill my pages
With your stories
I’ll eat it up
Eat it up
Every time I heal from you I fade
Fold me up
Spread me thin
Soften my creases
Know every tangle
Know how to unwind me
Am I a masterpiece?
Every time I heal from you I fade
I’ve been quiet
For so long
How’s my voice sound?
Am I one thing?
Or am I indescribable?
Do you want it all?
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5. |
TGIF
02:46
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You're going to see me
You're going to acknowledge my agony
I'm going to carry on and
I'm going to love you still, yeah
Now that I see you're a person
No longer a vision
I will not minimize the good so the bad can seem more bigger
The presence of discomfort cannot remove all the joy
There's been some good too
Inside the bad times
The bad is big
The joy is also big
Grow
I am healing you are healing we are healing
I have accommodated beyond my comfort level
I have walked on ice
I have spelled it all out
I made myself your clown
Now I'm making observations
I need to work on saying them loud
I've gotten too used to repeating myself
We are doing a good job
I think
Or at least a good enough job
I think
Don't let that get lost in the noise
There's so much noise, so much noise
I've been doing a good job, I think
Or at least a good enough job, I think
Don't let that get lost in the noise
There's so much noise, so much noise
There's been some good too
Inside the bad times
Grow
I am healing you are healing we are healing
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6. |
Fuck
04:13
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Your weight
Wrenching pleasure from my body
Stuffing anger in my darkness
Taking love from my making
feeding my hesitation
Sending wolves on my huntress
Building walls around my fortress
Faking smiles, "At your service"
Giving nothing but your privilege
You'll never feel these things I'm feeling
Never fight this fight I'm losing
Never feel the fear I drown in every time the silence
Isn't truly still
This cycle of forgiveness
Is it for me or them or no one?
It takes nothing from the pit of dread that screams inside my stomach
You rip the steal from out my body
But don't ask if I am ready
Steal my power, teach my gravity, show my place is without eyes to see
How should I feel you move in me?
I see a pyre set for lying
A stake ready for kindling
Crucified by those who want me to
Calm down
Feel less
Let go
Be quiet
Be gentle
Be polite
Listen to their strong voice
Listen to their strong voices
Listen to their strong voices
Listen
Listen to their strong voices stay loud
Listen to their strong voices stay loud
Listen to their strong voices stay loud
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7. |
Chemicals
05:00
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Life is fiction
I thought I could make it if I faked it
It's just, the other ones weren't patient
Thought I was a goddamn saint
I'm tarnished
Not filthy
Not the way they wanna fill me
I'm bitter that I worked so hard
For nothing nothing nothing
I was in love with the world
Now it's darkness is in full bloom
In love with the life that is only for the few
Growing up is knowing everything was fantasy
Love won't save me and I'll always be thirsty
My mind's cracked open from the ladies painted pretty
Pretty pretty chemicals
Give me all your chemicals
I need so much more than I ever wanted to need
I need a hand out of this bed where I've been living
How am I? I can't lie
It's been pretty touch and go
I'm echo
I'm just vapour
I'm barely here at all
In love with the world
Now his darkness is in full bloom
In love with the life that is only for the few
Growing up is knowing everything was fantasy
Love won't save me and I'll always be thirsty
My mind's cracked open from the ladies, pretty
Pretty pretty chemicals
Give me all your chemicals
Do I listen to these voices?
They're not real, you have no purpose
Don't go softly, bring the violence
There's no time left
Do I listen to these voices?
They're not real, you have no purpose
Don't go softly, bring the violence
There's no time left
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8. |
Gossip
03:35
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Your biased about my life
Because of his life
Or your idea of his life
Or maybe just his side of their lives
Well I'm not gonna listen to your advice
Cause you're just spiteful
It's not for me
Your love is not about me
You've got opinions about my life
You've got feelings about my life
Well I've got feelings about my life, too
Could you hold your tongue, and listen
You're not so right, you're just confident
How that must feel to be so sure
Well that's not for me
It's grey for me
It's all so grey for me
I'm drawing this line now
Around all the things I can't tell you
You've broken a bridge now by making
My trauma about you
But that's not the thing
My trauma's about me
My trauma's about me
My trauma's about me me me
My trauma's about me
My trauma's about me
My trauma's about me me me
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9. |
Cool Dream Bud
04:37
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When sleep hits everything slips away
And I feel I can forget my real day
As I fall into dream state
Where it's very clear who I am and what I need to do
And when I go through the day for the second time that night
I am ready for the carnage
I am armed, and I'm a straight shooting sun of a gun
I'm trying to talk this guy down, but he won't let us go
Won't stop holding our lives in the balance
I have no choice
So I point
And it clicks
And his gun lets loose
But I know where the bullets will be
And we dance
And I feel their jet streams like ribbons around me
Tickle my cheeks and my ribs lift my hair
I'm a goddess
He's infinitesimal
Finally
My ammunition releases like a flood
A flock of crows leaping from my barrel
The scattering, the smattering, the spattering
And in the shock I misstep the dance
And the blood trickles down and my vision is dark
Everything is so calm
Everything's okay now
I did the thing
Now we can move on
The blood is running down my face
As I run blind throughout the place
I'm erupting
No one falters
What the fuck holy fuck holy fuck
Wait
Am I real? Am I part of this world?
Hey, can you see me?
Hello, can you see me?
Hello, can you see me?
And I awake
And it's the classic twist in the story
That this
Slow-burn plot-line is the real life
What a drag
How cliche
Guess I'll go on
With this day
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10. |
=^.^=
00:51
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11. |
Kill Kitty Kill
03:49
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Your presence feels like spiders crawling on my teeth, along my gums
Their venom flowing through to my tongue
I don’t like this, anger isn’t really that comfortable
But the frequencies spill out of you, float on over
Ignite a bomb
I’ve fantasized about a fist fight
A little me & you action, to teach you what’s mine
I guess I’m feeling violent
Something about you just twists the knife in me, and I refuse to just lay down and die
I’ve got tigers
In my rib cage
Just keep pressing
I’ll crack
I can’t wait to lie open
And broken
Smiling and finally free
I wanna let the cats out
I want to scream, “Kill, Kitties, Kill”
Let the cats out
“Kill, Kitty, Kill, Kill”
Take your popular opinion, and read beyond the headlines
You got some likes, wow, congratulations
That must mean you’re right, right?
You might be a great person (but I doubt it)
It’s okay, you’ve got time
Clickbait Jailbait, there’s still time
Could you not test drive me life?
I’ve worked really hard just to survive
Fill your hit list with somebody else’s existence
Get your swinging jaw
Out of my fucking spotlight
I’ve got tigers
In my rib cage
Just keep pressing
I’ll crack
I can’t wait to lie open
And broken
Smiling and finally free
I wanna let the cats out
I want to scream, “Kill, Kitties, Kill”
Let the cats out
“Kill, Kitty, Kill, Kill”
The prickles up the back of my neck, send signals to my claws to come out
Darlings, lets make ribbons of all things
I wanna let the cats out
I want to scream, “Kill, Kitties, Kill”
Let the cats out
“Kill, Kitty, Kill, Kill”
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12. |
BABYGIRLGALACTIC
00:09
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13. |
Good Morning Go To Sleep
05:01
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I woke up
And I missed the Women's March
Cause I couldn't breathe right
Long enough
Or hold it together
But I ate crackers
And I
Clutched my pills and screamed in the mattress
And I watched the livestream
And I kept my wrists clean
And I scrubbed my teeth clean
And I kept my brain chemistry clean
Remember when I was vibrant?
Or further back, when I was a tyrant?
I was so happy then
Right?
When I was always right
Ha ha
When I was brave and brazen
And I held my beliefs like diamonds
Those were the days
Mom made dinner and I complained
I told my friends that I'm having a hard day
They know what that means
Cause they're
Spinning their wheels in the same race
I told my friends that I'm having a hard day
They know what that means
Cause they're
Spinning their wheels in the same race
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Future Womb Calgary, Alberta
Future Womb is the haunting, groovy, and rebellious brainchild of Mikaela Cochrane, and collaborators Jordan Moe (guitar), Michael De Souza (bass), and Andrew Ellergodt (drums). Future Womb’s debut album, BABYGIRLGALACTIC, was released April 19, 2019.
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