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BABYGIRLGALACTIC

by Future Womb

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1.
Cycle 04:13
Dear Dear emotional being I'm sorry that you thought that was the way it felt to have somebody care I'm sorry that you gave so much of your life away to this creature This creature who lives In others' folds and lies it's way inside your thighs until the guilt makes it too tired To try Apparently it gets better So long as the cycle doesn't just keep on spinning I don't wanna hurt somebody like it hurt me I've been bit Now I'm scared I'll get hungry Hungry Am Am I doomed To rinse and repeat this frailty? I trusted with every fibre I quieted the doubts I snuffed my own flame I'm a good student that way I learned to question my own intuition But it was crystal clear and so right Fuck Apparently it gets better So long as the cycle doesn't just keep on spinning I don't wanna hurt somebody like it hurt me I've been bit Now I'm scared I'll get hungry Hungry I made myself a ghost I stood in the shadows for you I let you be louder than me I I held you up higher than me For three years But I guess I should thank you For the mercy The mercy killing Thank you Apparently it gets better So long as the cycle doesn't just keep on spinning
2.
Hush 02:47
Don't make a peep Don't break the stillness Listen to the in and out Forget about the anger Pretend we made it better The hush could hide the strain that would be in your voice trying to force out the words "Darling, I'm so sorry" I need to forget your smile I need to forget your charm Your scent You passion I need to forget that smirk on your face Hey, Hush won't you bury the doubt? Let's pretend you need me for a while Pretend it's the first time Pretend it's not the last
3.
Holograms 03:39
In a Broken City At a starship's pace Phonebooth confessions and friendship dates Here's an invitation to climb inside my mind To fall back in neutral at a green light Go go go go And love you give me tunnel vision I can't Seem to shake the way you hold my eyes in holograms I wanna groove on those luscious lips And ride this wavelength straight on 'til morning Let's howl with roadside coyotes And climb on frosty horses 'til we're twelve again Spend sunrise bedtimes in soft steel boxes Steal my lips mid-block, mid-sentance I can't Seem to hold on to enough of you at once This hot and smoky haze it's like you read my brain And love you give me tunnel vision I can't Seem to shake the way you hold my eyes in holograms I wanna groove on those luscious lips And ride this wavelength straight on 'til morning Let's howl with roadside coyotes And climb on frosty horses 'til we're twelve again Stretch those floral arms and fold me in like a bad hand My pokerface is slippin' Shit This must be it
4.
Eat It Up 03:55
I don’t know how to be in love Without offering everything I have I can’t be your baby Without saying take it all Take it all I’m too delicate for a louder life Fill my pages With your stories I’ll eat it up Eat it up Every time I heal from you I fade Fold me up Spread me thin Soften my creases Know every tangle Know how to unwind me Am I a masterpiece? Every time I heal from you I fade I’ve been quiet For so long How’s my voice sound? Am I one thing? Or am I indescribable? Do you want it all?
5.
TGIF 02:46
You're going to see me You're going to acknowledge my agony I'm going to carry on and I'm going to love you still, yeah Now that I see you're a person No longer a vision I will not minimize the good so the bad can seem more bigger The presence of discomfort cannot remove all the joy There's been some good too Inside the bad times The bad is big The joy is also big Grow I am healing you are healing we are healing I have accommodated beyond my comfort level I have walked on ice I have spelled it all out I made myself your clown Now I'm making observations I need to work on saying them loud I've gotten too used to repeating myself We are doing a good job I think Or at least a good enough job I think Don't let that get lost in the noise There's so much noise, so much noise I've been doing a good job, I think Or at least a good enough job, I think Don't let that get lost in the noise There's so much noise, so much noise There's been some good too Inside the bad times Grow I am healing you are healing we are healing
6.
Fuck 04:13
Your weight Wrenching pleasure from my body Stuffing anger in my darkness Taking love from my making feeding my hesitation Sending wolves on my huntress Building walls around my fortress Faking smiles, "At your service" Giving nothing but your privilege You'll never feel these things I'm feeling Never fight this fight I'm losing Never feel the fear I drown in every time the silence Isn't truly still This cycle of forgiveness Is it for me or them or no one? It takes nothing from the pit of dread that screams inside my stomach You rip the steal from out my body But don't ask if I am ready Steal my power, teach my gravity, show my place is without eyes to see How should I feel you move in me? I see a pyre set for lying A stake ready for kindling Crucified by those who want me to Calm down Feel less Let go Be quiet Be gentle Be polite Listen to their strong voice Listen to their strong voices Listen to their strong voices Listen Listen to their strong voices stay loud Listen to their strong voices stay loud Listen to their strong voices stay loud
7.
Chemicals 05:00
Life is fiction I thought I could make it if I faked it It's just, the other ones weren't patient Thought I was a goddamn saint I'm tarnished Not filthy Not the way they wanna fill me I'm bitter that I worked so hard For nothing nothing nothing I was in love with the world Now it's darkness is in full bloom In love with the life that is only for the few Growing up is knowing everything was fantasy Love won't save me and I'll always be thirsty My mind's cracked open from the ladies painted pretty Pretty pretty chemicals Give me all your chemicals I need so much more than I ever wanted to need I need a hand out of this bed where I've been living How am I? I can't lie It's been pretty touch and go I'm echo I'm just vapour I'm barely here at all In love with the world Now his darkness is in full bloom In love with the life that is only for the few Growing up is knowing everything was fantasy Love won't save me and I'll always be thirsty My mind's cracked open from the ladies, pretty Pretty pretty chemicals Give me all your chemicals Do I listen to these voices? They're not real, you have no purpose Don't go softly, bring the violence There's no time left Do I listen to these voices? They're not real, you have no purpose Don't go softly, bring the violence There's no time left
8.
Gossip 03:35
Your biased about my life Because of his life Or your idea of his life Or maybe just his side of their lives Well I'm not gonna listen to your advice Cause you're just spiteful It's not for me Your love is not about me You've got opinions about my life You've got feelings about my life Well I've got feelings about my life, too Could you hold your tongue, and listen You're not so right, you're just confident How that must feel to be so sure Well that's not for me It's grey for me It's all so grey for me I'm drawing this line now Around all the things I can't tell you You've broken a bridge now by making My trauma about you But that's not the thing My trauma's about me My trauma's about me My trauma's about me me me My trauma's about me My trauma's about me My trauma's about me me me
9.
When sleep hits everything slips away And I feel I can forget my real day As I fall into dream state Where it's very clear who I am and what I need to do And when I go through the day for the second time that night I am ready for the carnage I am armed, and I'm a straight shooting sun of a gun I'm trying to talk this guy down, but he won't let us go Won't stop holding our lives in the balance I have no choice So I point And it clicks And his gun lets loose But I know where the bullets will be And we dance And I feel their jet streams like ribbons around me Tickle my cheeks and my ribs lift my hair I'm a goddess He's infinitesimal Finally My ammunition releases like a flood A flock of crows leaping from my barrel The scattering, the smattering, the spattering And in the shock I misstep the dance And the blood trickles down and my vision is dark Everything is so calm Everything's okay now I did the thing Now we can move on The blood is running down my face As I run blind throughout the place I'm erupting No one falters What the fuck holy fuck holy fuck Wait Am I real? Am I part of this world? Hey, can you see me? Hello, can you see me? Hello, can you see me? And I awake And it's the classic twist in the story That this Slow-burn plot-line is the real life What a drag How cliche Guess I'll go on With this day
10.
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11.
Your presence feels like spiders crawling on my teeth, along my gums Their venom flowing through to my tongue I don’t like this, anger isn’t really that comfortable But the frequencies spill out of you, float on over Ignite a bomb I’ve fantasized about a fist fight A little me & you action, to teach you what’s mine I guess I’m feeling violent Something about you just twists the knife in me, and I refuse to just lay down and die I’ve got tigers In my rib cage Just keep pressing I’ll crack I can’t wait to lie open And broken Smiling and finally free I wanna let the cats out I want to scream, “Kill, Kitties, Kill” Let the cats out “Kill, Kitty, Kill, Kill” Take your popular opinion, and read beyond the headlines You got some likes, wow, congratulations That must mean you’re right, right? You might be a great person (but I doubt it) It’s okay, you’ve got time Clickbait Jailbait, there’s still time Could you not test drive me life? I’ve worked really hard just to survive Fill your hit list with somebody else’s existence Get your swinging jaw Out of my fucking spotlight I’ve got tigers In my rib cage Just keep pressing I’ll crack I can’t wait to lie open And broken Smiling and finally free I wanna let the cats out I want to scream, “Kill, Kitties, Kill” Let the cats out “Kill, Kitty, Kill, Kill” The prickles up the back of my neck, send signals to my claws to come out Darlings, lets make ribbons of all things I wanna let the cats out I want to scream, “Kill, Kitties, Kill” Let the cats out “Kill, Kitty, Kill, Kill”
12.
13.
I woke up And I missed the Women's March Cause I couldn't breathe right Long enough Or hold it together But I ate crackers And I Clutched my pills and screamed in the mattress And I watched the livestream And I kept my wrists clean And I scrubbed my teeth clean And I kept my brain chemistry clean Remember when I was vibrant? Or further back, when I was a tyrant? I was so happy then Right? When I was always right Ha ha When I was brave and brazen And I held my beliefs like diamonds Those were the days Mom made dinner and I complained I told my friends that I'm having a hard day They know what that means Cause they're Spinning their wheels in the same race I told my friends that I'm having a hard day They know what that means Cause they're Spinning their wheels in the same race

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BABYGIRLGALACTIC is a full-length autobiographical concept album exploring sexual and relationship trauma and recovery. The name aims to capture the frustration, humiliation, and illusion of power in the choice to stay small, while immeasurable potential remains contained beneath the surface.

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released April 12, 2019

Produced by Taylor Cochrane & Mikaela Cochrane. Mastered by Brock McFarlane of CPS Mastering.

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Future Womb Calgary, Alberta

Future Womb is the haunting, groovy, and rebellious brainchild of Mikaela Cochrane, and collaborators Jordan Moe (guitar), Michael De Souza (bass), and Andrew Ellergodt (drums). Future Womb’s debut album, BABYGIRLGALACTIC, was released April 19, 2019.

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